Weigh In #1

I started back at it, full force on Saturday April 6th.  I decided that I would weigh in on Mondays ((that way I knew I couldn't mess up on the weekends))

I should have taken a picture of it.....but I forgot.  I guess I'll have to start doing that next week since I already started eating breakfast.

I lost a total of 10 pounds for my first week! Yay! I know, I know.....before anyone says it....it's probably just all water weight.  SO WHAT, it's a loss! Yay again!

Well.....just gotta keep truckin'.  I really don't want surgery.

I can do this!!!

I'll post again next week......not that I have any readers but for my own accountability.

So........I've been thinking.....

I really don't want to have a WLS!!!  I can do this on my own.  I am the only one who controls me.  What's my fking problem!!!

I REFUSE to go down without a fight!!

And so it begins.......Again!

I'm so sick of being sick and tired! 

My own fault.  I jump on the wagon and I fall off the wagon. I hop back on and then throw myself off.  This time though, I face planted into pavement!

I went to a doctor appointment a few weeks back.  I hadn't been there in a couple of years.  I figured I might as well get all my ailments out there on the table and discuss them with my Doc.  After over an hour of speaking with the Resident Doctor, he went and discussed everything with my actual Doctor H. 

Doctor H comes in the room goes over everything briefly......and then he drops a bomb.  "I think you'd be an excellent candidate for Weight Loss Surgery!"  I think my face turned white! I got nervous all of the sudden and was at a loss for words.  All I could get out was, that's dangerous....it scares me.  Doctor H was quick to say there's different options, you don't have to have the Gastric Bypass. You need to go to the consult and talk with the doctor at least.

I've always felt I could lose this battle with the bulge on my own.  I didn't need to do anything drastic besides buckle down and get serious.  Unfortunately, my buckling down didn't have a safety lock! I fell off (the wagon) many times!!!

I still want to do this on my own.  Nothing feels more successful as saying I lost it all on my own!!!  I started back to it this past week.  After sitting in ER all night with my youngest son, I had a bad day of eating yesterday.  But I got back to it this morning. 

I'm giving it the last ol' college try!  I NEED to do this on my own.  No more f*cking around!

Weigh In/Birthday/Post Thanksgiving Weigh In

Thanksgiving was awesome as always.  I look forward to it every year.  Luckily this year I didn't "overeat" and feel disgusting afterwards. 

Monday November 26th was my 38th birthday.  That officially marks 2 years before I turn 40.  2 years......before the big 4-0!  It's going to fly by.  I have giving myself ample time to get back into ONEderland. 

I weighed in and loss 0.7 lbs.....yeah, yeah, I know, most people don't even log that as a loss since it wasn't even a full pound.  I log it as a loss because luckily for me, I didn't gain anything during this holiday weekend.....normally I would have gained.

I start another weight loss challenge on Monday December 3rd.  This time I want to be the big-money winner! I want that $120 bucks in MY pocket. 

I better get to moving my ass more if I want that money.




  

If only I had Shakira's body.  ((Guess that should be a motivation to move, right?)) LoL

:)

Weight Loss Politics.....whatever!

So I was in a weight loss challenge and I loss the MOST weight in the women's division........but i lost.



But I'm ok with it......really, I am.

Unfortunately, I didn't win the $120 bucks for the HIGHEST percentage of weight loss ((No one ever told me it went by percentage, dammit!)) But i walked away with $30 bucks. So it's money I didn't have, right!

The next challenge starts on December 3rd.............my eldest sister & a close family friend have also joined it.  They're toast! If I don't win against anyone else, I BETTER top their loss!!!!

I better get my ass moving more & kick back on all the damn turkey tomorrow.

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Ugh...

I wanted fast food yesterday.

I felt I deserved it.

I got it.

I ate it.

I felt shitty.

I'm still paying for it with stomach pain today.

That's what I get!

Ugh.

MINUS

A 9 lb loss. In a week.  I'm dumbfounded.  But happy.  12 lbs to date.



AWESOME!

Hoping...

I weighed myself on my home scale today.............I'm happy to announce that I didn't have to break it or chuck it out the window! I loss 5.6 lbs. Yippee!  **Doing the Dance of Joy!**

But...........................**cue scary music**

I have to weigh in tomorrow at HerbaLife because I decided to take a chance and join a Fitness Challenge.  **Mumbling** WTF was I thinking!! 

HerbaLife's scale has about a 3 lb difference than my scale.  I hate HerbaLife's scale for that reason. I feel like hitting it with a sledge hammer every time i step off of it!  Last time I was all jazzed with my 6 lb loss, then I stepped on their stupid scale and my jazziness flew out the damn window! 

I decided though that I'm going to track my scale's readings on myfitnesspal.com website and I'll just keep a tally of their reads on a pad of paper.  I don't know how many Fitness Challenges I'll get into.  This is my first and may be my last.  So I prefer to just follow what one scale says.  My emotions can not handle two different reads.....

Until tomorrow.........**cue that scary music again please!** 

Ouch!

I am NOT happy to report ....................

...................that I'm totally effin' sore!!

Motrin please!

Conquering Mt. Rubidoux

Mt. Rubidoux is located in Rubidoux, California which is right next to Riverside, California.

I've walked that Mountain plenty of times in the past year.  But since April, i haven't moved at all!!!  So it's no wonder that i walked up Mt. Rubidoux today and thought I was going to have a damn heart attack!! I had to stop 3 different times (all breaks were no more than 2 minutes) but I kept trucking & pushing and breathing hard! LoL. Damn, this was by far the hardest thing I've done in over 8 months!  But I'm glad i pushed myself and made myself do it.  I wanted to quit within the first 10 minutes and we hadn't even began the trek up the mountain!

I'm sure I'm going to be sore as hell tomorrow and I'm sure I'm not going to want to walk at all tomorrow but at least I did it. One small victory for this woman, one giant leap towards losing this weight! (Ha! I know, that was corny! :) )




This is the view from the top of Mt. Rubidoux.




This is the cross that sits at the highest point of Mt. Rubidoux

Here Goes Nothin!

Here we are.....

A month away from my 38th birthday.  Shocking.  Shocking because in my head, I still feel like I'm in my twenties......I know, as silly as that sounds I really do feel like I'm still in my twenties.  My body on the other hand, well....that's another story.

My body is that of a lazy, overweight, 30-something lady!!! I don't know WHO did this to my body! But if I ever find the culprit, I'm going to give them a piece a of my 20 year old mind!! ((LoL))

All jokes aside, I decided to document my journey because I feel I'm finally in a place "mentally" that I feel I WILL lose this damn weight once and for all! On November 26th I turn 38.  I know that's simple math but that's only 2 years away from 40!!!  I don't want to start my 40's the way i started my 30's and how I lived most of my 20's!!  Especially because I've read and heard from A LOT of people that it is SO hard to lose weight in your forties.  How true that is, I don't know....but I do know I don't want to take a chance and be stuck in this fat suit for the rest of my life. 

My official start date on this journey was October 15th, 2012.  I know I'm going to come across mental obstacles & physical pains but it's nothing I can't handle.  I've been through worst & anything I come across will just be a small price to pay for the big payoff, which is getting my life back and being able to fully enjoy it.  By fully enjoying it I mean being able to chase after my 4 year old and catching him.  Throwing the football around with my 3 older boys and not getting winded.  Being able to go for a bike ride and lasting more than 20 minutes! And, I'd be lying if i didn't say I want to be able to go into a regular size store and buy something off the rack that doesn't exceed size 13!!!  I don't want this for vanity or compliments, I want it simply so I can live this life as long as possible and as healthy as possible.  I don't want my boys having to take care of me when I'm older and I most definitely don't want to be someones burden one day. 

So I will be doing a weekly post to document my losses (or my cries if I don't lose lol), challenges or problems or whatever is on my crazy mind.  Hope you all will join me for this psycho circus I'm embarking on because I think it's gonna be one hell of a ride!